When I was young I had bright blonde hair, the older I got the more dull my hair became until it didn't resemble a colour at all. They call it mousy, but I've never seen a mouse don this shade of vagueness.
So for the best part of 20 years I've had bleached blonde hair. I've enjoyed being blonde, it suited me, but do blondes have more fun? Do they? When they have to sit through gruelling pain to achieve it? I began to find the process increasingly more painful - to the point where my head felt like it had burning hot needles boring into my brain. But you know, beauty is pain (I think that's what they say) and of course I carried on regardless.
However 2018 is a year where I am trying to give everything a little more thought. I have become vegan to make me think about what I put IN my body. I'm being morally conscious about where I buy clothes and cosmetics, to consider what's going ON my body. I'm making a concerted effort to cut down on the plastic I use that affects things OUTSIDE my body (the environment).
In light of this, I thought I'd try an all NATURAL hair salon to colour my hair. That way I'm thinking about the environment and my hair - surely Seaweed can't hurt my scalp, right? WRONG! The same old pain came back and I could barely get through the allotted time for my hair to reach the desired color.
I would like to point out Natural Colour Works were awesome and I would highly recommend them and their products. The lovely hairdresser simply said to me; "do you think your body is trying to tell you you've had enough?"
And there it is. So simple. Why didn't I think of that? When I look back I think my body has always given me signs. Usually I'm pretty good at listening. How vain of me to ignore this one!
As a teenager I was a bit of a rebel. I won't go in to too much detail as I'm pretty sure my family wouldn't enjoy reading that. Let's just say I began to have panic attacks, which essentially stopped me from going down a slippery slope because I chose to listen to my body. Which was saying, "this doesn't agree with you stop now". And so I did. And in light of my heart condition, perhaps it was trying to prevent me from death.
This is quite a long blog for me, but I guess what I want everyone to read even if they don't read the rest is, please listen to your body.
If you are experiencing pain or if something just doesn't feel right, it's always safer to get it checked out. I experienced symptoms during exercise (palpitations/breathlessness) twice before I went to hospital. Scarily 54.4 percent of people who suddenly died from cardiomyopathy had experienced some symptoms prior to dying.
We are very clever machines and essentially our bodies send us notifications all the time to keep us safe - we just need to listen.